or you could sit next to me. in the front. haha
ha! i thought i saw you.. :) lets study together. that class is gonna be a bitch. lol
giving up for the night.
hahahaha uhhh.. im trying to do chemistry i swear. multitasking to the max. not gonna be on tumblr after i answer this question. lol byeee.
suuup! nice meeting you today, haha. :)
yeah i’ll admit the chase is alright when im on the receiving end of it. but sometimes i dont even like that. i feel like im growing out of constantly wanting/needing attention from someone as a form of reassurance that they care. from here on out, i really would prefer a 50-50 effort in all my relationships. you get what you give. and no one has to put themselves out there all the time. and the only reason im like this now is because i hate chasing. relationship wise or friendship wise. when im doing all the work (eg: always initiating conversation, and overall making more of an effort) of course i end up feeling like shit. why do i even try when the other person doesnt care enough to try too? life is short, i’d rather spend it with people who actually want to spend it with me. not people i have to run after.
hii! thanks for the tip. can i really do that though? last time i talked to my advisor, she said that the grad school i want to go to would prefer for me to take the class at the university. i wish i could do it at NOVA.. :/
but why do i still feel like something’s missing? i wish i could get over this feeling..i know i just have to be patient. chem at 10 this morning was the longest 50 minutes of my life. i have to stop daydreaming.
all my classes are science courses except for calculus which is a bitch -_-
me talking to my roommates: “i just added it. ughh! fuckfuckfuckfuck—I CAN DO THIS.”
LOL. i hate myself. but i need to graduate. so its okay.. three classes tomorrow and then its the weekend. lets gooo :)
biking to campus an hour early. not sure what im gonna do there but i’ll probably people watch.. hah. feels like college again.
letting you go made me feel like i was giving up. but please know that i still care about you so much. i always will.
everyone tells me that i should get comcast or cox because verizon is shit. i agree. haha. thanks for the tip!
hii lovely! i think youve got it mixed up, YOU’RE the beautiful one. :) ironically, my internet actually started working right when i read your message. haha. so, thank you! hopefully it stays like this. and aw thanks! im glad we like the same music :) YESSS we need to hang out again when im in nova <3
im at the library using school internet for facebook and tumblr. lolol. lames. my oh so lucky roommates are at our apartment using their laptops -_- lol. IM SO MAD THAT VERIZON IS SENDING OUT THE MODEM FOR THURSDAY NEXT WEEK. THURSDAY. THE FIRST DAY OF CLASS. what am i gonna do for a week?! (im not addicted to the internet btw, im just sayin. lol i mean.. maybe i am a LITTLE, but who can say that they arent?) gah. i just feel so disconnected from the world. its hella lame. i hate verizon. i finally got through to them today. yesterday, i wasted 6 hours (yes, you read correctly—6 hours) on the phone with them trying to get help. they kept transferring me or putting me on hold or hanging up on me. bitches. i officially hate that jazzy music they play. basically all i listened to yesterday..ohhhh my gosh. no one else understands how crazy im going because everyone else has internet. does that make sense? lol. anyway. this is stoops. im gonna go hang out with matt or maybe mel? i need to find someone to entertain me.. end rant. hahaha byessssss.
im having mixed feelings, about a lot of things. i hope that once everyone else starts moving in, this anxious feeling will go away..
i miss home because this doesnt feel like home. not yet.